Simple Woman's Daybook Entry

Outside my window... A cooler day!  It was supposed to reach 80 degrees today, but luckily clouds and a breeze prevail.  I have had to water outside a couple of times now.  My rhubarb and chives are coming up, and there has been little or no moisture now for about three weeks.

I am thinking... Schedule, schedule, schedule.  I say it like it is a bad thing.  It's not.  It is the bane of my existence, but staying busy keeps me sane and keeps the blues at bay.  There is just a lot going on... Summer is already mapped out and I am stressing about how to fit it all in.

I am thankful... For the new set of headphones sitting over my ears right now.  Last night was our annual scout troop spaghetti dinner, which was accompanied by a silent and live auction.  Jordan did diddly-squat as far as setting up any donations or items to put in the auction.  Dean and I scrounged around to get some stuff in.  I think we may have netted close to $250 in bids to put towards Jordan's scout account.  But.  We also spent $300 on auction items ourselves.  We bought a couple of Waterpiks (so far I have refused to use Dean's Waterpik.  I'm weird like that.  Just like I don't like sharing drinks, cutlery and so forth....).  So I finally got my own, and the kids have their own.  yay!  But the big ticket item we were after was a pair of Beats headphones, by Dr. Dre.  We bid in the live auction to get them, and the price went all the way up to $205.  The bad news is that we did not open the box to look at them before we bid on them.  They are in (mostly) excellent shape, but are obviously used.  There is a little crack in the plastic.  There is also a question, upon closer inspection of the packaging, as to their authenticity.  There are some glaring discrepancies - the most obvious of which is that we are unable to register the serial number with Monster.  So all of this sounds like I am complaining, but really I'm not.  Because I slap these puppies on and I am IN A ZONE, BABY!  I put the little ones down this afternoon, (so I can be in blissful unawareness of what is going on around me), and I have hashed out a slew of emails that required thoughtful responses, and now I can write with abandon!!!  Well, for the next 20 minutes at least...

From the Learning Rooms... We actually did our first FULL week of school last week since I can't remember when.  It felt sooo good.  The week before I combed through all of the different components of everything that we use, and made about 30 different online requests for a variety of books at the library, and then just waited for them all to come in.  We even did math everyday - which is the hardest subject for me to get through because it requires one-on-one with both Jordan and Rylan - but at separate times.  Oftentimes I feel like I am managing a three-ring circus to keep it all going.   But last week, even though it felt crazy, it felt good.  I even found a couple of excellent blogs from moms who use FIAR exclusively, and I got tons of ideas for the two books that we are currently rowing: The Ragcoat for Rylan, and My Blue Boat for Owen.  We are going to make lapbooks for each - Rylan will do both books, Owen will just do BFIAR.    Both books are taking us in fascinating directions.  I will post about them when we are done. We will continue this next week, where we stopped off, but sadly schooling will not be as productive this week.  The upcoming weekend will be absolutely crazy, and I will need to take a couple of days to prepare.

In the kitchen... If I get my lazy butt off of the computer in the next few minutes, we will be having roasted vegetable minestrone, courtesy of Ree (aka Pioneer Woman).  It is oh, so good.  It also means that I have reached the unfortunate end of the groceries in the fridge, and if we are to eat at all this coming week, I have to go to the store.  Tonight.  uugh.

I am wearing... comfy cotton tee and skirt, and Crocs sandals.  I'm taking a break from the tennis shoes and the orthotics today - and I am already feeling it and it is only mid-afternoon.


I am creating... Well, before I was sick I was in the midst of a incredible bout of productivity as far as decluttering goes. I am working on reclaiming the rest of the floorspace in our bedroom, and getting rid of three bookcases. I managed to empty an entire bookcase's worth of stuff by either reallocating it to our classroom or the donation box. I sold a few to a local bookstore that does trades, so I have a credit I can use there in the future. I now have every last bit of educational 'stuff' in the office/classroom. I have whittled down an entire public school classroom's worth of teacher materials/books into just the four bookcases that are in our home classroom. This is monumental for me.  I will post about it soon. I just have a little bit more purging to do... but I am not feeling 100% yet, so it will have to wait. This is my decluttering project that I am working on for Simple Mom. The master bedroom, and our little hall-closet-of horrors by the garage door. Wouldn't you know, that Dean took it upon himself to tackle the bathroom closet? He informed me that we have enough different packages of cold/cough/flu medicine in our closet to stock a small pharmacy. And that I have enough deodorant and toothpaste to last me at least a year. oops.

I am going... CrAzY?  oh... wait, that's my natural state.  I am taking Rylan, Owen and Colin on a Girl Scout campout this weekend.  We are staying at a lodge.  I have twice refused to do this campout (because I knew that I would not have Dean along with to help out with the boys), but somehow I got roped into it.  I'm not kicking and screaming yet, but I am very close.  I am really, really trying to keep positive about this trip, but I am having a hard, hard time.  It became my job to organize the food portion, but I am having difficulty in getting people to understand that we have about 20+ adults and children to feed.  Hardly anyone is really signing up for adequate amounts of food.  I am in a little state of panic right now, but that will grow as the week goes on.  I am tempted to just bring a private stash of food and say the hell with it.  I will be glad when this is over.  And that is a very, very loaded statement.


I am wondering...  How homeschooling families with lots of kids manage to school their kids with even minimal success. It felt good last week, but we didn't hit every mark either.  How on Earth do they do it??

I am reading... Oh geez.  I've got three in the works right now...
1.  Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can't Stop Talking, by Susan Cain.  I am LOVING this book. This is soooo me!  She even addresses how the evolution of blogs has helped the introverted share their lives, when they otherwise would not take the initiative too.  It is easier for me to write about the most personal aspects of my life to the countless (and faceless) people reading it (okay - the ten or so who are faithful readers - ha!), then to get in front of a group and have them look at me weirdly as I pass around my take on what an organized school day looks like.  I also like that I have another voice validating what I have always known about me: I would much rather stay home with a good book than go out.  Period.  A small group (3-4) is much better for me than a large group. There is exception to this though: if I know everyone, I am completely comfortable - otherwise, I hole up along the wall somewhere and try to disappear.

2. Catching Fire, by Suzanne Collins.  This is book two of the Hunger Games series.  I started this morning, and I am (according to my Kindle) 58% the way through it.  Very hard to put down.  I actually had to force myself - because of the pathetic, hungry looks my dear children were giving me.  Bless my husband, though, for making breakfast this morning (and even bringing me pancakes in bed!) so that I could stay in bed and read for a couple of hours.  He is desperate to discuss the book - so I really need to catch up.  We just saw the Hunger Games movie yesterday.  Wow.  I am very impressed - I have to say it is the best book adaptation I have ever seen.  Just about every aspect of the movie is exactly what I had pictured in my head.

3.  The Brightest Star in the Sky, by Marian Keyes.  This was my bookclub's pick several months ago, and I never finished it.  I'm waiting for this month's current pick (mine) to come in at the library where I reserved a copy, so while I am waiting I am reading this.  I got about 25% the way through it before, so I hope I don't have too much trouble picking up where I left off.


I am hoping... That this coming weekend turns out much better than I am thinking.  I am filled with dread.  A lot of it has to do with the introvert thing.  I would rather be in a quiet cabin alone with my kids than with a bunch of people - especially loud and gabby little girls.  I have to honor Rylan's needs to be with friends and have new experiences, but I am having a hard time not projecting any negative feelings here.


I am looking forward to... We are expecting a trampoline to arrive (in cartons) on our doorstep sometime this week.  This is a joint birthday present to all of the kids.  We held a family meeting and all agreed that this would be their birthday gift (and only gift from us) this year.  We, of course, agreed to this before we actually knew what a decent trampoline costs.  So this is now birthday, Easter, Christmas, Valentine's and next birthday.  And whatever other money event we can get out of. 

I am learning... Obviously I haven't learned to say 'no' yet.  Still working on that one.


I am hearing... Despite the marvels of noise-cancelling headphones, I can still hear the kids over Green Day.


Around the house... A boat load of laundry because I ignored that duty all last week.  It's either school or housework.  Never both.  H  O  W?

I am pondering... What other household duties I can ignore this evening so I can get back to my book.


One of my favorite things... The excitement of an auction.  Despite my preference for peace and quiet, an auction is exciting stuff.  Then again, you make silly financial decisions based on emotion, not the actual bank balance.  Still fun tho'.

A few plans for the rest of the week... Owen has his 4 yr old Dr appt tomorrow.  We will no doubt be discussing his need for an inhaler - asthma is now a given at this point.  The usual karate lessons and then Jordan begins archery on Thursday.  He loves this class, and is looking forward to picking it up again.  Now that he has seen Hunger Games, he doubly excited.

Here is a picture for thought I am sharing...

Thoughts...

1.  I don't ever let the cat out.  Yet she seems to escape on a daily basis, because kids hold the door open...

2.  The house really, really, needs to be painted.

3.  A little caulk might be nice too...

4.  Does the cat look fat to you?  I did just read that the extra skin folds around the tops of their legs can act as a parachute and save them when they drop 19 stories out of a high-rise building, like a cat did in Boston earlier this week.

5.  We live in a 2-story house, so the extra folds of skin on the cat are useless.

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The progression of a painting

Paper

Fingers

Arm

Tummy

Wash

Rinse

Repeat

On radio silent...

My husband, Dean, commented to me this morning that I haven't written much on the blog, lately.  Well, I have been sick, but a bad cough can't keep me away from the keyboard for long.  But bad thoughts might...

I am almost over the worst of the flu/bronchitis.  The cough has changed from wet to dry.  It's the annoying dry cough that sends me over the edge into choking fits and sometimes I have to throw up.  The kind of cough that prevents me from going anywhere because it is too embarrassing and risky.  I'm tired, but will have fits of energy followed by a bout of dizzy lightheadedness.  If a room is too hot and stuffy I want to lay down because it hurts to breathe.

My bad thoughts aren't about being sick, though (although I am still upset at how much an illness sets the entire family back).  It's the damn springtime.  Every year the same thing....  Springtime should be a great time.  The sunshine, the birdsong, the budding plants...blah, blah, blah.  For me it just brings about a sadness that is a monster to deal with.  Every season it gets better for sure, but it still rears it's ugly head.  This year it arrived in JANUARY.  February was actually decent - it was busy with birthdays and Valentine's Day... but March and April are by far the worst.  Every cell in my body associates this time of year with sad feelings - it is like it permeates me.

I no longer directly relate the springtime to thoughts about why I hate the month of April.  It's been eight years, now, so please don't think I am still harping on that.  But it is a general feeling of sadness that I just can't shake.  It's a deep-rooted disappointment in myself and the feeling that I have let everybody down.  It's a feeling like I haven't a friend in the world.  It's silly, I know, but it's there.  I am quick to cry, quick to anger and I yell.  A lot.  I hate myself and the way I behave this time of year.

I do try to mitigate the ups and downs.  I avoid the news as much as I can.  Sad stories and hardships send me over the edge.  The recent news story of the father in Afghanistan who just lost eleven members of his family because of the American serviceman who gunned them down - a father himself, on his fourth tour of duty?  That whole situation just stinks.  I'm sad for everyone.  I listen to a story like that and I am sad for days.  I just read on a friend's blog that she has stage 3 breast cancer.  I'm devastated for her - yet I can't even bring myself to write her just yet.  I'm too sad.  So I have to avoid the news (which is hard because I am an NPR junkie), I have to avoid reading blogs that are about personal stuff  - even good news for other friends affects me - then I am even more prone to think that something is wrong with me.

I've decided that I should avoid making any long-term decisions during the months of Jan-April - simply because I'm under too much self-imposed emotional strain.  I've been known to say "I quit!!"  More than once, during this time period.  Handling my emotions has been such a battle for the past eight years.  My husband is a saint for weathering it, year after year.  Awareness of the problem is, of course, the first step.  The next step is to do my best to spare the rest of the world of my sporadic bouts of manical behavior.  I've done a terrible job of that so far this year.  Terrible.  So, the best thing for me to do is closely monitor my emotions, and write only on the good days, and avoid the computer on the bad ones - hence, radio silence.

Silence can also mean that I am busy.  Or that Colin will not give me a moment's peace to sit and write.  Or (is it really possible??), that I have nothing interesting to say at the moment.

Nah....

Back in the land of the living

I have the flu.  No.  I never did manage to get my flu shot last fall - and it finally caught up with me.  I've been dodging my flu shot for the past several years.  I did get a shot during each pregnancy, but other than that I don't recall getting one, but I'm pretty sure I must have.  The last time I had the flu was November 1993.  I remember it well.  I made my housemates Carolyn and Michelle suffer right along with me as I dominated the couch in the living room for a week.  It was pretty awful.  The first day I was back on my feet also coincided with Thanksgiving, and my boyfriend hauled me over to his house to meet his parents for the first time.  Stellar.

This time around I was not even thinking 'flu'.  I thought maybe it was walking pneumonia or something.  On Saturday it was a bad cough, and the next morning I wanted to lay down and die.  Yep.  That sounds like the flu...

Tamiflu is a wonderful thing.  I don't know if it is working to it's full potential, but since this is day four (if you don't count the coughing day), the fact that I am up on my feet, taking care of my kids, and blogging in coherent sentences must count for something.  Yesterday was a great day too.  I did six loads of laundry, dishes, and cleaned up a bit from the chaos that ensued while I was sequestered to my bed.  For the best results, you are supposed to begin Tamiflu within the first 24 hours of onset of symptoms. (40 at the most)  When we came home from Urgent Care Sunday night, Dean made me some broth and dry toast, just so I could have a little something in my stomach when I took it - it can make you nauseous.  I found the pill on the floor late the next morning.  I don't know how that happened, but I never managed to take that first dose.  oops.  I was pretty out of it, though, so I am not surprised.  I had taken the second dose that morning before I found it, so I think I managed to just squeak inside that 40 hour window.  I do think the Tamiflu is messing with my sense of taste though.  Everything tastes 'off' to me.  Apples, juice, bananas, bread, salty/sweet... even my toothpaste! 

I'm also taking an antibiotic for Bronchitis.  There is evidence of some 'pooling' in my lower lungs that may have lead to pneumonia - but with the meds it ought to clear out.  The bronchi were full of schtuff...  Luckily, during the first two days, when my flu symptoms were at their worse, the coughing was at a bare minimum.  I was in agony with joint pain and a splitting headache, and I think the coughing would have done me in.  It hurt to open my eyes or listen to loud noises, and the hot flashes followed by shivering was annoying as hell.  I am still getting hot flashes and a little nauseous, so I have to position myself near open windows.  Luckily, the weather is just gorgeous out, and I can crack the windows and not freeze everybody out.

I am so, so very thankful that the meds are working.  Otherwise, I would have been in a lot of trouble.  Dean and Jordan left yesterday morning for a three-day long scout campout.  He hemmed and hawed about whether or not he should go or not.  He has a cough too, and Jordan was complaining of feeling tired and achey.  Nothing would suck more than to trek two miles on snowshoe to a yurt, and then come down with the flu.  Even though they have had their flu shot, the fact that they got them last October does not bode well for them.  I'm getting it very late in the season and they are at risk - most especially Dean, for obvious reasons.  Dean was also anxious to leave me to fend for myself with the little ones.  My mom has stepped in and has helped me out a tremendous amount.  She brought over some soup, cleaned up the kitchen and made dinner and fed the kids on Monday night, and helped me out Tuesday morning, after Dean left to get the kids lunch and take Rylan to karate.  I felt better and better as Tuesday (yesterday) went on, and bit by bit I got more done.  Right now I have the urge to wash every last little thing on extra hot to zap any lingering germs.  I am so tired of this well/sick/well/sick/well/sick cycle.  We had a great fall season and then we all fell apart.

I am not thankful, though, for all that we have missed because of this.

* A horse show in Denver called the Mane Event

* Girl Scout Sunday (Rylan would have earned a patch)  I may just take her this coming Sunday and call it good - but it's not the same.

* Our homeschool group's Science Fair, on Sunday afternoon.  We were already behind, and there was no way I could have made up for lost time to get them ready in time, and Dean was unable to help - he had too much to do for work and to prepare for the scout trip.

* 100th Anniversary of Girl Scouts, on Monday.  We couldn't get out to do anything, and it even made my head spin to try and focus on my phone to try and enter a post about it on Facebook.


I am a little bitter about being sick.  I try to be careful about germs, and as a rule, we stay home if we are sick (if it can be helped - sometimes we are on the road and have no idea of what's coming...).  I have my suspicions about where this might of come from, and I'm not happy.  It has made me even more leery of door handles, gas pumps, grocery carts and faucet handles.  I welcome the casual cold, here and there - we need to give our immune systems a little workout from time to time, but this spring has been ridiculous.

Is it just me, or is the computer screen starting to sway?  Okay - I think that is my cue to get a little something in my tummy and go lie down for a bit.  I certainly hope this entry made sense - I swear I reread it at least a couple of times.

Wecome to Denver! Here's your parking ticket...

It's no secret to my friends that I am not on friendly terms with the Denver Parking Violations Bureau.

Today I wish to rake these money-hungry bastards through the coals.

First Violation:

10-21-10

I took my kids to the Denver Zoo.  Unfortunately I didn't check the Zoo online calendar before we left, and figured out upon arrival that it must have been a free Zoo day.  NO parking was to be found - anywhere.  I circled for twenty minutes before a nice gentleman, walking through the parking lot, waved me down and pointed out a spot that had just opened up.  It was on a gentle curve, but I managed to parallel park quite nicely.  Or so I thought.  As we arrived back at the car later that afternoon,(hot, hungry and crabby), there was a nice little ticket tucked in my door handle.  My first parking ticket ever.  Bastards.  I looked at it.  I was parked 21 inches away from the curb, and the legal limit is 18.  I got out a measuring tape and checked it myself.  Why, yes, I did have a measuring tape in the car!  It was in Rylan's carseat -  a little Hobby Lobby cheapie that she likes to play with.  My front wheels?  10 inches away.  My back wheels?  20 inches away.  I got a $25 ticket for being two inches further from the curb than I ought to have been.  To top it off, I didn't read the fine print, forgot about the ticket, and went to pay it about three weeks later.  On day 21, to be exact.  Problem is, if the fine isn't paid within twenty days - it doubles.  Nice.

Second Violation:

3-6-12

Again, a trip to the Denver Zoo.  Colin received some cash gifts for the birthday, and the plan was to purchase a family pass with the money.  We arrive shortly after the 9 am opening and go to the membership desk to purchase our pass.  At the exact same time I am paying for our pass, a pathetic instrument of the City's pension program is writing me a ticket for expired plates.  He passed by our car within a mere ten minutes of us vacating it.  My plates expired at the end of Jan - and Feb was our grace period.  I am a wicked, dangerous felon who drove around with plates that were on their sixth day past the grace period.  I am such a danger to the city and a menace to society.  I now plan to be a menace to the Denver Parking Violations Bureau. 

See the officer's name up there?  Shirland?  Here is a little something about "officer" Shirland.

Nice, huh?  Nice to now belong to one of the THOUSANDS of Denver visitors and residents that he has ticketed for benign parking violations.  The city has refused to acknowledge that they were in the wrong.  The city "SAID" that he was taken off of the streets and reassigned to another department.  I am here to say that my ticket proves that the city LIED.  This man is once again going about his business lining the city's coffers with tax-payers hard-earned money. 

I called his supervisor to question Mr. Shirland's ability to write tickets again.  He has yet to call me back.  I sent an email to the reporter (Brian Maass) that broke the investigative story a year ago.  He wrote me back within 30 minutes.  His take was depressing though: not much we can do.  He is not surprised the city put him back on the streets.  It all comes down to $$$$.

It is expensive enough to do anything in Denver.  Now you've got Big Brother following you through the parking lots, waiting for you to turn your back so that they can pounce and write a ticket because your car is parked one centimeter too far to the right.

So you've been warned people!!

Top 3 things to get a ticket for:

1. Meter violation

2. Street Sweeping

3. License Plate Violation

Denver is looking for anything and everything to nail you for.  Take a tape measure.  Make sure both of your plates are up to snuff.  Hanging crooked?  Ticket.

Shame on you Denver.  Shame on your "officers" who drum up an incredible amount of revenue for you - and only you.  Money that will go to you instead of area attractions, restaurants, stores, etc...  But of course, how else can you pay for all of those business expense receipts that are submitted by your personnel on a regular basis??

Denver.  Fail.